Feeling the fear
Can’t even look in the mirror
Babe I can’t even look at myself
Now I been by myself for some years
I find it hard to connect
On a quest to find you taking steps
On this mountain I climb lay to rest
I remember the time that we met
Didn’t wanna take your light away
I wanted to share it but here I am breaking your spirit
Just for another
Into the mist you get covered but losing your love got me tearing up all of these walls
Breaking the windows I built for your loss
I realised I’m missing you I’m falling off
It’s hurting me deep in the smog
I travel 'til I get lost
Where is my God now
They tried to tell me to calm down
Stay up through the night til the dawns out
I been praying that one day you’ll come round
Every sparkle I see in the sky
Praying you’ll reach me as I start to cry
Knowing I’m wrong as your song sings in mind
Hated when you said goodbye
I wish that I tried harder
To the father I might need this final offer
Reunion with no communion
My betrayal made you off it
To be honest, ironic cause now I’m barely existing
These promises I broke got me lifted

Cause baby I been too fucked up from the past
I tried to let it go but it keeps coming back
Even when I say I’ve grown
I’m still feeling attached
I should’ve known better but I guess it’s too bad
But baby I been too fucked up from the past
I tried to let it go but it keeps coming back
Even when I say I’ve grown
I’m still feeling attached
I should’ve known better but it keeps coming back

My mind is fucked
I’ve had enough
Nowadays I just be calling your bluff
I been tryna make my way through the mud
You said you’d help me but you held me up
You fucked me up
Made all these promises
All your fake love got me feeling so conscience
Of all your actions the constant attacking
But is it that tragic or am I just talking shit
I can never tell if people acting around me
I would just see through em but I’m always doubting
I say I found my wings so why am I drowning
The light that I swim in surrounds me
When I was lost you had found me
But when you give me your love and respect
That’s the exact type of shit I deflect
I don’t know how to accept
I just been wishing for death
That was back when I tried cheating on ex
I was blacked out I thought nothing was left
Then me and her split up
So I could not forgive myself for that shit yes I did make a mess
Tried picking up pieces resorted to drinking
I never tried thinking bout how people felt
Destroying myself so when you gave me help
I went off the deep end and crashed into hell
Or at least how that’s how it felt
So I always put them walls up
Thought I would never be strong enough
To forgive all the trauma that I created
But I made it and we still came through
But forgive me if you say you love me and I don’t say it too

Cause I’m too fucked up from the past
I tried to let it go but it keeps coming back
Even when I say I’ve grown
I’m still feeling attached
I should’ve known better but I guess it’s too bad
But baby I been too fucked up from the past
I tried to let it go but it keeps coming back
Even when I say I’ve grown
I’m still feeling attached
I should’ve known better but it keeps coming back

I should’ve known better
I should’ve known better
I can’t make no promises
That I can’t keep forever
I should’ve known better
I could’ve done better
If I could change the past
Then I’d make us last forever
I should’ve known better
I should’ve known better
I can’t make no promises
That I can’t keep forever
I should’ve known better
I could’ve done better
If I could change the past
Then I’d make us last forever

I promise I won’t lose control
But if I go I’ll let you know
I promise I won’t lose your soul
Cause when I die I’ll let you go
I promise I won’t lose control
But if I go I’ll let you know
I promise I won’t lose your soul
Cause when I die I’ll let you go