I think I might kill myself tonight But I prayed to Yukko and saw the light I was sitting in the back of a taxi Late night out and no trains that go past 3 Brother asks me where I’m heading at I say I don’t know but I wanna tell him stop at that street We was just off Shortland and I was wanting To go see if that car park’s still there The one I went up back when I was 15 with the boys Making scenes in the city when the night’s clear Everything back then was so sweet But it seems like that dream turned into a nightmare So I’m tryna go back imma run up them stairs When I’m there imma fly in the light air Cause Tom Scott said that one thing Where I come from the suicide rates are higher than a junky But when I hear that I feel nothing Cause I’ll prolly end up dead and overdose off of something Next day I was at uni getting drunk at the bar But it’s time for me to come home But instead I’m near Queen street and now I’m thinking What’s that one car park with an extra floor? Victoria street is where I meet my fate And now I’m late and my mums tryna call me But I’m staring at the top just imagining my drop And I feel the darkness start to draw me Cause I hate this city and I hate my Place in the world where they just ignore me And my mother’s sick And I got too much trauma To be dealing with Let my thoughts absorb me I might kill myself tonight But I prayed to

Taking the train Thinking bout blowing my brains Coming outta uni shit faced Made some mistakes I got thoughts so insane Running laps round these fakes But I can’t change Yes I been stuck in my ways Felt like I’m running in place I’m desperately trying to make a new fate But I’m fucking worried it might be too late I can’t even look in the mirror Cause I always tear up I start to realise that I’m broken When I feel fearless I’m not seeing clearer So I do not bother with showing emotion I got some demons and Jesus is livid With all of my actions that’s backwards and twisted Will I be forgiven for all of my sinning Or am I just doomed to the life that I’m living I gotta be Truman cause this shit feels scripted My mum getting sicker and our time is limited She might get better but I feel pathetic Cause I cannot help with the bills or her living sitch I’m in debt And I’m broke as fuck Spending all my money on this music Just for no one to listen it got me conflicted What if all this hard work been useless And it’s changing my soul and I’m losing control And someone tried to call me abusive Yeah I’ve got some thoughts that’s intrusive But I’d never lay hands on a woman So don’t lie on my name for some credit I was gon tell you how I feel but forget it But every letter I’m spitting is greatness discerned This is the moment I’ve earned This is the return And I gotta stay on the move Whole life I been feeling confused Everytime I fall I feel I might lose My nana dementia in mind Looked me in my eyes And told me the truth You can fail when you do what you hate So you just do what you want to do Nana told me that shit and it’s true So I gotta stay on the move Whole life I been feeling confused Everytime I fall I feel I might lose My nana dementia in mind Looked me in my eyes And told me the truth You can fail when you do what you hate So you just do what you want to do I know I talk a lot about suicide Cause if I’m being honest g I really wanna die But I do worry bout what might happen now If I try put this up on Spotify Cause when you start to make sample based art All these labels wanna do is come and say you’re a criminal Cause when you start to make art That comes straight from the heart Then they say you’re a *** that’s unoriginal But I’m a God and that’s end of sentence Crucified by my own intentions Bitch I live in my own dimension So fuck all the rules I don’t pay attention Your loss if you don’t wanna listen Cause I beat my own beats to submission Since I was born I been on a mission Making these tracks til I’m counting these millions See I do it for the fam And when I get famous imma do it for my fans And if it’s cliche I don’t care what you say Ever since I was a kid g I always had a plan To be the fucking man that my father never was And to build my own buzz maybe buy my own land We need to take it back cause for years they attacked Cause our wairua strong but they never understand Listen up Fuck the tropes and generalizations How come we gotta fight hard for our nation Cause when I try to speak my language and can’t say shit I realise that colonisation Still got more effects then it should on me On my brown little cousins when they feeling lonely So imma work my ass off Til I’m so far gone Everybody gonna think that they really know me And I gotta stay on the move Whole life I been feeling confused Everytime I fall I feel I might lose My nana dementia in mind Looked me in my eyes And told me the truth You can fail when you do what you hate So you just do what you want to do Nana told me that shit and it’s true So I gotta stay on the move Whole life I been feeling confused Everytime I fall I feel I might lose My nana dementia in mind Looked me in my eyes And told me the truth You can fail when you do what you hate So you just do what you want to do And I gotta stay on the move Whole life I been feeling confused Everytime I fall I feel I might lose My nana dementia in mind Looked me in my eyes And told me the truth You can fail when you do what you hate So you just do what you want to do Nana told me that shit and it’s true So I gotta stay on the move Whole life I been feeling confused Everytime I fall I feel I might lose My nana dementia in mind Looked me in my eyes And told me the truth You can fail when you do what you hate So you just do what you want to do

Aye yuh JJ lurking in the night I been searching for the light I can see it in my fucking mind Aye yuh I told ya everything’s alright But I gotta stop lying to myself I need some help this time Cause lately it been feeling like I’m a dropout But I graduated, kept my head down Yet the heartbreak’s still there? wow Well I got faith it’ll work out In the long run cause they washed up You can see how they come and they talk tough But I block that shit like a pop up I been all alone I don’t talk much and it’s apparent I need some love from my other parent I need a chick look like Leslie Caron I need some friends that will not abandon I’m changing my life cause I cannot stand When I look in the mirror and see that man That’s another part of me but not wholeheartedly the person that I wanna be so bad Because I just got out of a pyramid scheme All of these unis, they promise you dreams But I’m on the benefit and barely getting shit so I’m wondering why I did these things? But baby I did it for music With these bars I’ma empty the full clip Cause in five years I’ll be top 5 If I stay alive through this bullshit Huh yeah All you motherfuckers make me feel a way Why the fuck you think I never let you see my face? I didn’t know that I was gonna see today Somebody tell me if they feel this cause I’m not okay So if they ever made you feel a way Just know my g, you’re gonna be okay Aye All you motherfuckers make me feel a way Why the fuck you think I never let you see my face? I didn’t know that I was gonna see today Wait Look Aye They tried to take away my fucking light They talk shit but I still ain’t die In five years I’ll be top five But that’s only if I stay alive Aye

Yo I’m sitting in this Uber Wondering if I should call her Thinking I might be able to go back and solve our problems But if I’m being honest Sickness I got a lot of With this I try to fix it But missing is how I’ve wound up Here is my final offer The nail in the coffin I’m tryna make a name for myself but not for profit So maybe I could help somebody else with their darkness But if you can’t find the light yourself then what are ya Maybe I’m fucking nothing Maybe I’m fucking useless Maybe I should just end it to stop of all the confusion Maybe I been abusive Maybe I am a user That or I’m just a loser Who doesn’t know how to do this I escape to my music Trying to find influence Tryna not be influenced by substances that’s elusive Cause if health is wealth then I’m spiritually broken I try say how I feel but the words are unspoken I hope that someone will be there for me Cause g I still can’t afford therapy Is somebody out there? Are they hearing me? If somebody talk you let em speak So keep your head up high Rise up Never fear this life Rise up Aye keep your head up Rise up Never fear them Rise up I told the Uber to stop here I live truth I don’t dare Try get by with no care I get lots of ideas Fuck executing My thoughts can end ya career My thoughts can turn a nightmare to reality My thoughts have power and give me this fear My thoughts are deadly might cause a fatality My thoughts make me wish I was never here All of my thoughts got a mind of they own They do what they want and they know I’m alone They fuck with my friends and they fuck with my family If it’s just me they terrorise my home Been running away from my thoughts for a minute I did some deals with em and thought we was finished Talk to my therapist I hope they hearing this But I been thinking of ending it cause When those five free sessions end That’s the moment that I lose all my friends That’s the moment I start over again I can’t afford this I cannot pretend This system we live in is fucked up The help that they give us is barely the minimum I know some got it worse My family cursed by these sicknesses that we been living with Mum might go on work and income Life’s fucked I pray that we get some Blessings coming in the form of A monetary currency so we can perform this Game that doesn’t really exist Putting worth on our lives that's fucking meaningless I don’t know if I can take it But I gotta make it So we can get better Together I hope that somebody will be there for me Cause g I still can’t afford therapy Is somebody out there? Are they hearing me? If somebody talk you let em speak So keep your head up high Rise up Never fear this life Rise up Aye keep your head up Rise up Never fear them Rise up

This is blood, sweat and tears! This is ending my career She said that I’m never there Bitch I am not even here Got so many things to fear I just feel like no one care Oh well fuck ‘em I’m disgusting I got demons in my head I got people all around me and they wishing for my death I been working since a child but I never get respect Been creating for awhile but now all I see is red I ain’t coming for the crown I'm coming for they fucking head Must’ve had my headphones in I don’t care what the fuck you said Chargers hopeless phone is broken Boy don’t even try to text I been sprinting at my dreams while y’all been sitting at your desk What? Everytime that I jot I put thought in these bars yet they copying us They just rinse and repeat Who am I kidding I live in the dungeons and trenches See visions that no man can see Been underground for a minute they change their position just to get in the industry Doing flips and bending backwards if they acrobatics Well then I guess I am the flea I can soar through universes and break all the curses Yes I do the strangest of things I feel like William Byers my heart is on fire But I can’t do intimacy I can’t do women or men or nobody I’m done You do not love me you want me for fun I’m everything everywhere all at once I am an eagle I soar to the sun Boy I’m the Taika of rap What I do in the shadows is darkness and magic Rabbits ain’t pulled out of hats This is realer than that All you rappers is faker than catfish This shit has gotten so bad that the music you worship is only a bit above average Bank account tragic but baby my spiritual wealth is in a whole nother fucking tax bracket I told my momma I wanna be baptised Cause I want every God off my bad side I don’t fuck with religion I think it’s a gimmick But I know I’m gifted and that’s why Imma keep pushing til it’s felt But I don’t think therapist’s office could help I got problems that sit in my noggin’ The voices obnoxious They tell me that y’all overlook me I been carrying around this trauma From mother and father So I get angry when I shouldn’t Crying on kitchen floor tiles Back in 2019 I was seventeen and so useless That was back in last of high school Only thing I wanted was to fuck on *** pussy Now I got all of these blessings I think God been teaching me a lesson My girl said that she a lesbian Bitch I feel like Jens Lekman Been tryna chase what I lost in the hopes that I find it The fun thing bout time is you cannot rewind it I done lost all hope on you bitches You bitches don’t know me And won’t understand me So stay out my muhfuckin business I got demons in my head But I’m just tryna forget Everything that you had left I remember what you said But I can’t seem to let you go Everything I do I just don’t know Where to go or what to do I feel so lost I’m so confused I got demons in my head And I been thinking about what you said and But I can’t seem to let you go I got demons in my head But I’m just tryna forget Everything that you had left And I been thinking about what you said But I can’t seem to let you go I been working blood sweat and tears for you I been working blood sweat and tears for you I been working blood sweat and tears for you I can’t let you go I been working blood sweat and tears for you I been working blood sweat and tears for you I been working blood sweat and tears for you

[JJ Shadow] All I want is for the world to end I been seeing all your ghosts again I just miss being your boyfriend So I’m gonna buy that Onlyfanz I can never be her only man’s So I just live in my head I wish that I was still dead I wish that Baby you know that I’m sickening You know I got that addiction I need that debit card Baby I swear to God This the last one then I’m finished I do it cause I’m always hurt I try to get off it but it never works No I ain’t been talking to her Uh She said [Dieyanna Goddess] Pussy boy Motherfucking little bitch You ain’t shit Pussy boy You ain’t shit You ain’t shit No Pussy boy Motherfucking little bitch You ain’t shit Pussy boy You ain’t shit You ain’t shit Yuh Pussy boy You ain’t shit Please get off my fucking dick Little bitch You ain’t shit You ain’t shit Yuh Pussy boy Small dick Little bitch You ain’t shit You ain’t shit You ain’t shit No [JJ Shadow] And I know that you thought That this music was gon take us far But you just fucked a Soundcloud rapper That still can’t even drive a car Intimacy I can’t do it at all Cause when I was young I was left with them scars So when I see men being sneaky and odd They playing pretend yeah they think a God Nah, you just a grown up that’s grooming these women I’m burning your *** and getting to business I do not fuck with that shit you disgusting ass prick And you think that there’s not much of difference Your *** is trash and I think you should *** But I’ll censor it out cause I don’t want specifics I’ve seen my mother cry way too many times So I’ll never refer to these women as bitches Nah Never again But now someone tried to accuse me of shit? I ain’t having it Make that comment again I’m attacking it Know some people been tryna play activist But it’s all for the gram and I’m snapping it Oh the cap of it what a catastrophe And you know I mean it when I rap this way Never abused but I made some mistakes I tried cheating and now it’s too late I got demons I try to escape I feel like that shit’s changing my fate How can I be a man and be great? When I did that shit man I’m feeling so fake I’m calling em out but responsibility I gotta take Before I see another day We been on the on and off For awhile but your smile caught me off guard And I forgot we was sparring in the violence of war But if it’s on then it’s on and I’m so far gone When it comes to us maybe it was just lust Maybe it was desperation and unjust conversations persuading darkness over love when the light that we share start to dim as the dust clear You better come here Don’t you run from my love or your own tears As you hide behind the waterfalls on your own face I can see you tryna leave and I’m like don’t, wait Can we just sit and talk Can we just try sorting it out Every kiss of death we share is like a sword in the mouth What are you talking about? I can’t take criticism But I can only envision me and you at our wedding But the tears that we shedding aren’t worth it I know that every relationship ain’t perfect But something's gotta give and if nothing here working Then why are we purposely doing the worst things Purely in spite of each other I need some coverage Do you got my back or am I just nothing? I don’t know baby I ain’t got nothing to say But if you ain’t riding with me get the fuck up out my way And I could do this all day I can get high with ya soar to outer space We can just escape our problems Living life obvious conquer our battles today but But that might never work Cause the shit that we did when we think about it hurts Think we need a reset think we need a rebirth But then I went and made it worse Then I went and made it worse I fucked up Tryna cheat and shit man fuck all that Cause I can never be your only man’s But I’ll still buy that onlyfans If you make one Haha Yeah Cause I can never be your only man’s But I’ll still buy that onlyfans If you make one And by the way this is NOT an anti-porn song FUCK SWERFS

Been tryna hold onto these moments But I just can’t seem to get a hold of em Spent the whole of last night feeling lonely I would ask you to come over but you never wanna Used to go out with my boys smoking marijuana Lightweight two puffs imma be a goner But I been keeping to myself if I’m being honest Nah I don’t run up the clubs that shit’s just a persona But I can turn that on if you want me to be that way How come everybody always made me feel that way I gotta be somebody else on my day to day Just to survive but tonight I plan my escape Don’t really fit into percentages I thought you knew that shit from the beginning Always been black sheep my heart is all twisted But when I said to you I love you girl I really meant it Forget it Young broke god I’m a menace Student loan dumb no job but I’m winning Cause I make this art baby I’m no civilian I owe the government cash I’m in debt And it hurts cause since birth I have been truly blessed I went from sleeping on couches to two story houses But still I just live in my head Imma feel this way until I’m dead And I feel like it’s coming soon Cause I just wanna aim and pop pop in my living room Right to the back of my skull I’m not in the mood So if you fuck with us You’ll get dropped by me and my crew You’ll never catch me in the hood or the north shore Because the only place I rep is public transport She asked me if I wanna live and I said no Don’t wanna be a bitch but I might let go Oh my god I’m so lost Don’t know where to go I been gone Don’t know what’s wrong I just can’t know If nobody Try to help I might let go I might let go Aye, yuh I been south I been east I been central Only place that I can rep is public transport This whole world This my home Imma let go Imma let go Aye I don’t have a face or have a name I hurt myself just to feel again I always act tough but it’s fucking fake I just rub my ego to disguise the pain When I spit baby I’m a tyrant I’m the indigenous Dionysus When I drink it’s scarier than ISIS Then I wake up don’t know what the time is I might fuck my whole life with it I’m bout to lose my own wife cause of it I’m bouta cheat I am not complete Now I can never go out in public They need a hero but I need a Bane Maniac veteran in my own brain Bitch I’m lugubrious bitch I’m insane Shoutout to Peggy and Ugly Mane Goddamn Oh my god I’m so lost Don’t know where to go I been gone Don’t know what’s wrong I just can’t know If nobody Try to help I might let go I might let go Aye, yuh I been south I been east I been central Only place that I can rep is public transport This whole world This my home Imma let go Imma let go Aye Yuh

I can feel it I can feel it in my spirit You can hear it Through my vocal box tearing What you’re fearing is a Product of the drum breaks The nights that I stay up late Tryna make this work So the children’s earth ain’t insane Battling the darkness but I’m losing the war Feel like whenever I talk they just be shrugging me off But every beat that I’ve torn through is work of a God But I been searching for a purpose cause the tree of life is bout to fall I ask the pastor to absolve me of sin As long as he don’t try and take my money again I don’t wanna give it all just to find me some balance So it’s 4725 until I reach the casket Fourth is the one I follow The seventh a sacred treasure Second I use for pleasure The fifth is a deadly weapon The moment that you harness them they take them away But they can never clip my wings I’ma soar to outer space Always known I was gonna be alone Forever on my own tryna make a dream my home I’ll never let it go til the day I reach the end of me And even when I’m gone they gon always have to mention me Cause everyone will know the day that I cement my legacy So you don’t have to mourn cause you know my spirit never sleeps It lives forever and ever within these symphonies And you know it’s for infinity Nowadays I’m feeling distant from my own fam And all my friends who said they there for me done switched the plans I feel like Kevin Ab Don’t think they understand Sometimes you gotta be your own fucking boyband Sometimes you gotta be your own motherfucking fan And pray to whatever spirit you’re dealt a greater hand Until then it’s fuck the world I’m on my own now I can’t go back in time and change I gotta grow now I’m screaming fuck these consequences I ain’t running I been hiding under covers cause the light is what I’m ducking I been tryna find my place as the world throws me under Demons watching me shudder as people praying I fail But you know I always prevail I’m Bronte with the thunder I’ll rap until I die it’s all I have before I plummet I’ll scream into the nothing praying it’ll give me something Arms open mind closing never coped with repercussions Always known I was gonna be alone Forever on my own tryna make a dream my home I’ll never let it go til the day I reach the end of me And even when I’m gone they gon always have to mention me Cause everyone will know the day that I cement my legacy So you don’t have to mourn cause you know my spirit never sleeps It lives forever and ever within these symphonies And you know it’s for infinity I know you’ll be proud of me I know you’ll be proud of me In my mind I can find Something godly I know you’ll be proud of me I know you’ll be proud of me In my mind I can find Something godly Now let me set the example When I be flipping the samples I be speaking thoughts ample Amplifying every tantrum Speak my mind in every tangent Feel the soul of every rapper That’s passed, present and future Spread my music like a cancer So here’s the answer And I know that it’s a given But I’m fully in sync with rhythms And patterns in my visions I can see a promised land for me Creating from the ground up Funny how life works now I see where I wound up Navigating pathways to my destination If I take a wrong turn it might lead to my decimation But a fraction of my heart is laced within every bar for me They say they rap from the heart I’m attacking every artery I’m honestly a God to me I practice every word I preach And teach my verbs upon the earth Until it hurts for me to speak Til I can’t even fucking breathe Wait let me take a breath Now I’m ready to spit my soul til there’s nothing left Do not do this for respect Do not do this for a cheque Even when it’s mixed by Cheq I’m involved in every step Don’t mean to be spreading ego But please do not miss these steps Bitch I am a soaring eagle Flying through the Ethernet Every brushstroke is all apart of a deeper web I do this for the broken youth who don’t know if their life is even worth it Finding purpose tryna float above the surface I am merely a servant to the unnerved and nervous I am merely a vessel for the mess that is the person I am merely a person truly flawed and imperfect I am merely a mirror to the spirits of the broken Wounded healer for realer l I been speaking words unspoken Fuck a double entendre and fuck all this wordplay I’m tryna start making differences and make the world change If I die trying, fuck it then I hope they all pray for me I’m going into battle with metaphors as my weaponry Bravado my body armour in the carnage I tend to see A tendency to run from the darkness as it begins to creep But see, it was meant for me A rainbow is my legacy I’ll always be a friend for you And I do not pretend to be Fake woke spiritual I speak from my universe So if you don’t get it that’s a you problem first I’m a symbol of everything from hospitals to hearses Who still does not know how to end his verses Fuck with me And you know it’s for infinity

I been doing this for years I’m still going hard Say it over and over because I’m sick of getting snobbed I been tryna live this life and I been feeling odd I feel existence is pointless but I’ll finish the job I got demons in my mind please pray for me If only you could hear the words that they say to me Your depressive episode is everyday for me I’m screaming at my own whānau to get away from me If there ever is a God I hope he hears me too But imma keep going hard ‘til I’m old and bruised Until I’m eighty two You know I’m always gonna stand by truth And so I gotta lot a shit to prove Why do people always act like they don’t love me? When I know that they wouldn’t put their own fam above me? A sickening cycle of all our light being shut in But I won’t let it happen again I’m too stubborn Maybe it’s cause I’m Stoutley Maybe it’s cause I’m realer than most Maybe it’s cause I’m always loving even when they go ghost Maybe it’s because when I say shit it ain’t no joke But yet they take it as theres fakeness in the words that I’ve spoke Maybe I’m just too real Maybe I hold up a mirror? Maybe if they looked into it they’d start to see clearer My whole fam been outcasted our hearts teared up But we still stand strong together we never fear em Cause our generational trauma may beat us til we’re broke But even with all the cracks we stand solid as stone All the sicknesses we’ve been given are barely a joke You tell God try harder cause we still gon float But I been tryna figure it out for years How come my fucking mother had to shed so many tears? How come nana and poppa worked they ass off through the years? I'm thankful that they found love yeah we still here I never been black sheep cause we a black herd A flock of motherfuckers never fit into the earth Yeah bitch we know our worth But they treating us like dirt Always leaving us and yet we still kicked to the curb We got demons in our mind please pray for us If only you could hear the words that they say to us Your depressive episode is everyday for us We screaming at you motherfuckers stay away from us If there ever is a God I hope he hears us too But imma keep going hard ‘til I’m old and bruised Until I’m eighty two Ever since I was born I been feeling like my mind gone But I stay on earth doing mahi for the whānau Make em pakipaki when I come out get my shine on Had to use my roro hoping I don’t get these lines wrong When I was a kid they made me feel whakama Erased my whakapapa and made me more Pākehā But I know my roots and it’s deeper than they say I still wanna ako and so I’m all game Cause baby you can try and take my pride away and make me feel ashamed Like how you made my nana feel like her race should’ve changed But bitch you can never take my name Cause g I am mighty Like Ihu Karaiti I’ll stand here all day Because you know my wairua strong And you can never ever break the motherfucking bond But yo I’m in the long white cloud like rangi Fuck with my whānau that shit is your tangi I used to think that we wasn’t important But our family history has just been absorbed in Darkness and hurt slavery and distortion My poppa African but all his life he didn’t know it My nana Māori but was told to never try to own it And all our language had been broken and our culture stolen So then we had to build our own and hold it But struggling is a luxury available to only those who can’t afford it We found ourselves and we still might change I do a lot of soul searching to navigate through the pain But we is fucking navigators you know we find our way But when y’all make me feel a way that's when shit goes strange So imma make sure my whānau proud today Make sure we never ever gonna be enslaved again Cause I’m in love with who I am And I’m proud of the pain Not my problem that you motherfuckers ain’t We got angels on our side and they pray for us If only you could hear the words that they say to us The love you share once in awhile is everyday for us And yet you got the nerve to say “get away from us”? If there ever is a God I hope he hears you too But imma keep going hard ‘til I’m old and bruised Until I’m eighty two But you know I always stand by truth You motherfuckers got some work to do I hope you find your way I hope you find your way I hope you find your way Aye I hope you find your way I hope you find your way I hope you find your way I hope you find your way I hope you find your way Aye I hope you find your way I hope you find your way I hope you find your way Aye

I got so many problems I wish that I could solve ‘em But I cannot feel Inside I got so many problems Thought you were down to ride with but uh I cannot compete with him It’s real I wish that I could deal With all the things I feel Inside It’s real I don’t know how you feel But I know Nah fuck that look I don’t really wanna walk through these dark nights Wanna stay with you and talk till the sunlight Never really been a fan of the night life I’m just out with my boys when the time's right But I’m hanging out with you so this feels nice Deep down I wanna fuck you while the stars shine See the love in your eyes in the moonlight But if you don’t love me back then it’s alright Everything is all good when I’m with you When I’m not I feel my time is being misused That’s why I’m still sitting here on this barstool I would do anything to not be far from you But I don’t wanna compromise who you are boo Cause I’m a God too I’m kinda odd but you are as well I’m in my feelings you can probably tell But I ain’t ever tryna stop you from being yourself I know I’m not the only one that you see now But can we please just talk so I can peace out You got me wondering like why the fuck is he around? I don’t wanna see him can we leave now? As long as you’re being who you wanna be now I can stay cool and chill in the background Keep a space for me between y’all, in fact now I know my place I don’t even gotta act wild If you want that If there’s something That you want I will do it for nothing If you ever need someone then I’ll come clean We can love and just see what the sun brings But I never really hold onto one thing I remember it all And when I go back to that night I start to fall And where I land is in who we are But my dreams don’t go too far And aw fuck this I got so many problems I wish that I could solve ‘em But I cannot feel Inside I got so many problems Thought you were down to ride with but uh I cannot compete with him It’s real I wish that I could deal With all the things I feel Inside It’s real I don’t know how you feel But I know Baby, look I don’t know how to cope And now I’m losing all hope Cause I thought what we had Was something special But you said you want me to go And I just don’t know Like can we still be friends This shit got awks, I don’t want it to end You was really there for me But I can’t pretend Like I ain’t want something more So baby please I’m sorry That I lost control I don’t wanna let you go But you hanging out with him And deep down I know I was never good enough for your soul So baby I’m sorry But I can’t compete But when I make it you gon’ see And then you'll know you fucked up with him and that you wish you stayed with me I got so many problems I wish that I could solve ‘em But I cannot feel Inside I got so many problems Thought you were down to ride with but uh I cannot compete with him It’s real I wish that I could deal With all the things I feel Inside It’s real Damn How the fuck am I gonna compete with him man, shit But hey look Well I guess I gotta figure it out I’ll get you someday

[JJ Shadow] I kill em all Watch how they fall Cause we found our way Yeah Straight from the Gods Cause babe I’m a navigator Persevered through it all I’m calling on Rangi This shit your tangi If I make a call Woah I wear my spirit on me No you cannot take from it me Fuck yo cars fuck yo jewellery Bitch ima burn that money Cause boy I’m a navigator We came straight from the Gods I’m calling on Rangi That shit your tangi If I make a call Woah No I ain’t about threats So many nights I got filled with regret I’m reanimating I’m back from the dead Third day when I’m taking these steps No faith like an atheist yet When I reach the Holy Mountain Imma burn all that money that you been counting then I’m letting you go cause you keep me drowning Cause you already know me and my tribe we been on a quest Wordplay never set it to rest I got the dawg in me White wolf in the dark when I spark the trees Even you can hear me bark when I’m out the sea Cause I’m splitting you in parts like Moses Chosen Harry Potter flows cause the track leaves you floating Parseltongue in the year of the snake I can see through the fakes gotta keep my eyes open Wait Gotta keep my eyes open Yeah Gotta keep my eyes open Imma bring it back home Lemme bring it back home Uh Yeah Listen Gotta keep my eyes open Lemme bring it back home to the ocean We was crossing that sea no Moses Through the Māī and the Paru we was floating We found our way to the land and in its glory But they try and change it to another story Tell a motherfucker try looking in Te Kore All you white boys still calling me a Hori I ain’t even know what the fuck you want from me I see Te Ao I do not know what you talking about I put more heart and soul into my vowels Than you could put into a verse wow Lemme make it clear I am not here right now When I’m on the mic I put fear in the crowd Cause I’m Uenuku Atua I leave you all whakama I do not care about y’all I know who I am Y’all don’t I got spiritual wealth Y’all broke I got too many bars Can’t cope I spit the truth in every single note I spit my facts in every single sample I stole I’ll flip it and give you some more Got raised on that Dilla, Nujabes and Kanye So you cannot stop me from bombing these hoes I was yelling and screaming and running from demons I looked up to Rangi and knew you was see through I’ve repped 47 since STEEZ was on genius So I throw it up like a girl that’s bulimic My mum was the life of the party Ancestors look down on me I know they proud of me There ain’t no stopping me Me oh done been my Miyagi So if you don’t think I can fly Just watch me Call in the cameras You know we dangerous Walking on water I’m coming from Nazareth But I stay humble Got trauma I’m carrying If I’m a G well then that’s how they’ll bury me I don’t mean gangsta g I mean a great I know when I make it they’ll feed off my plate I’m spreading my love cause they got too much hate So I say keep your head up and you’ll change your fate I move through life with no apology I been through too much to fake it So I live my truth in my discography Because baby this world is subjective The powers that be is gon always neglect us So don’t start to think that they’ll ever accept us They turn all our empty pockets into weapons That’s why I be stressing cause y’all don’t ask questions We live in a time of reversing regression The doctors and therapists nurse my depression They spit in our face yet we take every lesson Been wearing a mask ever since I was seven Or probably younger I got too much hunger So I cannot stop tryna bring you these blessings I been all alone in my life Been thru way too much strife So I found the light through all my brethren All of my sisters who been thru the pain The whānau who falling again and again The children who been told that they need to change they ways And then they get treated the same All of the trauma that we navigating The pyramids rising The light has no shading But ever since JJ done came in their way it seems Nothing is ever gonna be the same again So while they hating shit We navigating We navigating Swan dive on the mic with a Zorro knife I was born a legend no need to destroy lives No hate in my heart had fear since the start But I knew deep down it was alright Cause I had a dream to make real I wish I could write out exact what I feel But I know if I take extracts from my soul Then shit at the least I’ll give y’all something real Yuh I do this cause my family sick My history nearly got wiped in attempt So I spout the truth from the real to the myth Because I am legend like Smith No change on this earth This ain’t no game I spit flames since the birth I’m with the birds with the way that I turn I feel like I’m Ziggy but you can’t fuck with me Let stardust disperse Cause I’m just way too hungry to stop I got so much drive I don’t know how to park And I still ain’t got a license Looking in the mirror I would see myself I would tear up I’m in the upper like Kahukura And you know I only spit the purest I been around like a fucking tourist But I still ain’t leave this country but only for the moment cause you know I know I been odd But we fucking navigators We came straight from the Gods I wear my spirit on my chest You cannot stop I’m calling on Rangi That shit your tangi When we see the call [Indy Skies] Unstoppable higher power running through me Like the Oracle for the impossible Know I'ma always get done Like the motherfucking queen that I am Never run Not one, two, three, four shots, got me down Don’t play dumb with me I could go the full round And I never made a sound When I rose from the ground I worked hard in silence Heart of a lion Speed of a cheetah Yeah And you can never bully me outta my shit It’s 100 degrees in the stu in the winter All I did is write bars 'til my fingers splintered Looking for a way out Lay up just to stay out Over and over I get it popping I don’t stay down Bitch you wanna play now? But this shit ain’t no playground Oh Aye, aye In the deep end I’ma I’ma run it up Bitches wanna pretend that they real enough Teachers wanna contest, I ain’t feeling ‘em Nobody got the way my mind works so I had to find a New path New school Whole new state of mind Misfit in trouble yeah wasting time Used to sit up by the teacher Couldn’t stay in line Now I got my head down for so long That I forgot the time Turned my back to my shadow then I saw the light Chose a different path and worked throughout the whole damn night Navigating all my options Lit my soul so bright Won’t let the world crush my dreams Born to fight JJ told me lay heat on the beat So I burn this shit up Don’t give one fuck bout a loss, I’m a winner Stacking that bread I forgot to eat dinner You don’t know where I been where I’m going You don’t know what I done what I know and Only got one life one shot The toughest gonna suffice to the top You get what you live so attract what you want Yeah no matter what Uh uh uh uh Yeah no matter what Uh uh You don’t know where I been where I’m going You don’t know, you don't know, you don't know You don’t know where I been where I’m going You don’t know, you don't know, you don't know You don’t know where I been where I’m going You don’t know where I been where I’m going Uh uh uh uhuh

"TWELVE" Yo I’d rather fucking kill myself than even try getting better With these public health systems yo that shit happens never Cause our buildings aren’t the flyest but there’s enough sky rises That are high enough for me just to fly, not like a pilot I been worried bout my fam and my friends Cause half of them are sick as fuck the rest just want it to end I can’t pretend like there’s no problems in this country When half the people are junkies Other half always searching for something But yet we always say it’s nothing I think about my mother and how she was treated One day she woke up half deaf next she’s barely breathing Vertigo is sure to throw her off her balance She could barely move so me and uncle had to call the ambulance She was in hospital for days, they sent her fucking home Without a single diagnosis like they lack chromosomes I don’t know what’s going on I was worried she might pass away Got fucked around for plenty months until we found some pay Finally went private through that work insurance shit Then this specialist done came along and threw a fucking fit Turns out she had a stroke and we didn’t even know All happened because of covid could’ve found out months ago I’m not mad about the wait I’m just happy she got options But when they laid out the plan that’s when I got toxic These fucking people emailed her and sent her the deets She needed rehab and all of it had came with a fee How the fuck do you expect her to get better on the bene Then profess you wanna help us while you begging for some pennies When my nana got dimensia they said they were gonna check on her Then left us to our lonesome for 7 years I reckon that they Wanna try and tell us that this healthcare is free Which is way fucking better than the shit that’s overseas But we only got attention when we had to pay a fee So it might work out for you but it didn’t work for me I thank God for the whānau and her work Who actually understood what happened to her Cause ACC didn’t And even work and income said it wasn’t health Made her go on jobseeker what the fuck is that about? What if it was someone else and a family they’re without? If their boss don’t give a fuck then I guess they’re getting kicked out Now they’re left all alone and probably gone homeless They find a gun on the streets and BLAOW they’ve gone domeless Even if none of this happened still I haven’t been the same ever since I turned 12 I been living in hell in my mind All this responsibility is killing me I don’t know if I’ll be fine Cause everyday I wake up, I feel so hopeless I just don’t know if I can cope with this Cause I can’t fucking deal with this So I’ll escape into the wilderness "WILDERNESS" Rest In Peace Mac Miller Shout out Lil B I found myself in the dark when I thought I couldn’t see They been asking where I been I been running from my dreams But I know that there’s no escape I wish I could get away from me I don’t wanna but I might kill this shit Just for the motherfucking For the thrill of it They gon find you in the motherfucking wilderness G I been I been killing it But I can’t But I don’t wanna deal with it They gon find you in the motherfucking wilderness I been lost for a minute Every single day I’m tryna decease What? I’m a God in an image I am really who you trying to be I don’t wanna be in harms way I got feelings that I can’t change Y’all gon take this the wrong way But I feel like a young Kanye You’ll never see me again They been killing shit But I can’t And I can’t even deal with it You can find me in the motherfucking wilderness Cause I just can’t seem to find my way I been feeling like this gonna be my final day I just wanna I just want escape They gon’ find me when the time is right Come with me baby Let’s go to the wilderness Let’s go to the wilderness Fuck the world, we seen this shit Let’s go to the wilderness

Feeling the fear Can’t even look in the mirror Babe I can’t even look at myself Now I been by myself for some years I find it hard to connect On a quest to find you taking steps On this mountain I climb lay to rest I remember the time that we met Didn’t wanna take your light away I wanted to share it but here I am breaking your spirit Just for another Into the mist you get covered but losing your love got me tearing up all of these walls Breaking the windows I built for your loss I realised I’m missing you I’m falling off It’s hurting me deep in the smog I travel 'til I get lost Where is my God now They tried to tell me to calm down Stay up through the night til the dawns out I been praying that one day you’ll come round Every sparkle I see in the sky Praying you’ll reach me as I start to cry Knowing I’m wrong as your song sings in mind Hated when you said goodbye I wish that I tried harder To the father I might need this final offer Reunion with no communion My betrayal made you off it To be honest, ironic cause now I’m barely existing These promises I broke got me lifted Cause baby I been too fucked up from the past I tried to let it go but it keeps coming back Even when I say I’ve grown I’m still feeling attached I should’ve known better but I guess it’s too bad But baby I been too fucked up from the past I tried to let it go but it keeps coming back Even when I say I’ve grown I’m still feeling attached I should’ve known better but it keeps coming back My mind is fucked I’ve had enough Nowadays I just be calling your bluff I been tryna make my way through the mud You said you’d help me but you held me up You fucked me up Made all these promises All your fake love got me feeling so conscience Of all your actions the constant attacking But is it that tragic or am I just talking shit I can never tell if people acting around me I would just see through em but I’m always doubting I say I found my wings so why am I drowning The light that I swim in surrounds me When I was lost you had found me But when you give me your love and respect That’s the exact type of shit I deflect I don’t know how to accept I just been wishing for death That was back when I tried cheating on ex I was blacked out I thought nothing was left Then me and her split up So I could not forgive myself for that shit yes I did make a mess Tried picking up pieces resorted to drinking I never tried thinking bout how people felt Destroying myself so when you gave me help I went off the deep end and crashed into hell Or at least how that’s how it felt So I always put them walls up Thought I would never be strong enough To forgive all the trauma that I created But I made it and we still came through But forgive me if you say you love me and I don’t say it too Cause I’m too fucked up from the past I tried to let it go but it keeps coming back Even when I say I’ve grown I’m still feeling attached I should’ve known better but I guess it’s too bad But baby I been too fucked up from the past I tried to let it go but it keeps coming back Even when I say I’ve grown I’m still feeling attached I should’ve known better but it keeps coming back I should’ve known better I should’ve known better I can’t make no promises That I can’t keep forever I should’ve known better I could’ve done better If I could change the past Then I’d make us last forever I should’ve known better I should’ve known better I can’t make no promises That I can’t keep forever I should’ve known better I could’ve done better If I could change the past Then I’d make us last forever I promise I won’t lose control But if I go I’ll let you know I promise I won’t lose your soul Cause when I die I’ll let you go I promise I won’t lose control But if I go I’ll let you know I promise I won’t lose your soul Cause when I die I’ll let you go

Oh yeah motherfucker what Why you think that I ain’t gonna try and run it up? Most days of my life I never give a fuck I do it all before I fall into another rut All you fuckers don’t think I can hear your screams I’m Freddy Krueger on the mic I come in ya dreams Fuck around and you gon see exactly what I mean Fuck around and you gon AGH! Aye I got hospital fees I got toxic with ease I went locksmith and key I want Uh I want all of it for me (I just wanna fucking leave) Bitch I’m fucked I want needs I got blood On my teeth Bitch yuh Cause I been tryna find my way in this motherfucking wilderness Up the mountain imma climb There’s a monster in my mind Can’t swim no Christ in my lifeline Mere mortal where nothing has an end As a sacred flower sheds Sacrifices cross a skyline Haven’t seen it but the light shines Just a fool in dark, no time I’m gon burn all this money I’m gon turn in possessions I’m gonna give back what was loaned Imma be my own mother Imma be my own father Surrender and walk through the door And I promise I won’t disappoint ya But I know that we’re all on our own Fuck some poetry I hope you know it’s me Now it’s time you can begin to learn

"FREAKOUT" [JJ Shadow] Aye, I been moving like a vet All these voices in my head They been tugging on my dress Bitch ugh Boy you know we not impressed I got blood and tears to shed G you know I wish for death When that sun going down bitch I freak out Fuck all of that talk bitch I give you what you need now All these motherfuckers always told me not to be loud We gon bring the freaks out Watch me fucking freak out Bitch I let them ghosts in I’m running up them floors quick I show em no emotion This mask gone keep me closed in This bastard been inglorious I move big like notorious They kill me bitch there’s more of us But I feel like I’m choking I feel so fucking hopeless Up on this rooftop I’m standing waiting for the pain to stop Til the casket drops, I will play God I’m iridescent but I stay in the dark I been on the road I’m running from stars I look to the past my future been Odd Your hype is too mellow I scream fuck it all G I’m thinking that I might fall Bitch I been misunderstood since birth It only got worse my family cursed My nana forgetting me Alien weaponry Them second guessing me gets on my nerves I put too much work in for all of this hurting The thoughts I’ve been birthing been fucking disturbed I’m so fucking sick of these people who treat me unequal Their karma be coming in herds But see I never knew my worth All my pain I put in the verse All these tears that end up on these words Vocals chords that tear into the earth 47 til I hit the dirt Hail Mary’s taking me to church Flying fairies angels took a turn Moonwalking til I crash and burn Guess I’ll never fucking learn Aye, I been moving like a vet All these voices in my head They been tugging on my dress Bitch ugh Boy you know we not impressed I got blood and tears to shed G you know I wish for death When that sun going down bitch I freak out Fuck all of that talk bitch I give you what you need now All these motherfuckers always told me not to be loud We gon bring the freaks out Watch me fucking freak out [Me oh myriorama] I'm underneath the bed sheet like I’m dead meat It's food for thought, food for vultures like I’m read meat Whoda thought that I would turn out such a dead beat dad Still rappin on a beat and bring that heat and bring that Skeet skeet on the beat on the Bout to kick my feet all up on the Even though I’m 6 feet under Sneaker pimpin one hit wonder Quit yer simpin, good will hunter Good year blimpin in the thunder in the winter Wait a week and let the snow caress that red and rosy cheek! Yeah Memory, speak Mnemosyne, sleep Blink and you’ll miss it and weep Cry me a river that’s deep It’s good for the fish and the sheep Sewing me something I reaped Showing me something I already know and I already locked in the keep Oh! Whoda thought I’d wake up next to me Oh! This reminds me of an NDE... Oh - well at least I’ll empty out my ego Right? No? [JJ Shadow] Aye, I been moving like a vet All these voices in my head They been tugging on my dress Bitch ugh Boy you know we not impressed I got blood and tears to shed G you know I wish for death When that sun going down bitch I freak out Fuck all of that talk bitch I give you what you need now All these motherfuckers always told me not to be loud We gon bring the freaks out Watch me fucking freak out [JJ Shadow & Me oh myriorama] You've gotta You've gotta Gotta let ya gotta let yourself go You've gotta Gotta let yourself go You've gotta Gotta let yourself go You've gotta Gotta let yourself go You've gotta Gotta let yourself go You've gotta Gotta let yourself You've gotta Go You've gotta Gotta let ya gotta let yourself go You've gotta Gotta let ya gotta let yourself go You've gotta Gotta let ya gotta let yourself go You've gotta Gotta let ya gotta let yourself go You've gotta Gotta let ya gotta let yourself go You've gotta Gotta let ya gotta let yourself go You've gotta Gotta let ya gotta let yourself go "/" I’m in a house but still it ain’t nobody’s home I’m sitting all alone tryna get out of my dome I’m talking to these Evie’s and these cleverbots My thoughts I never cared to jot to others So I’m hiding making covers to mashups of songs I made Uploading videos up on my page Praying that somebody sees me in the hopes of getting paid I was only 9 years old when I started getting comments From this older guy telling me I was beautiful He said that he loved my videos and that he loved me too And he wanted to meet me because he said I looked so cute And that I had a lot of talent but he loved it when I just talked But I didn’t see the signs and now I wish that I had just blocked Then he started telling me that Jesus loves me even more That I should put down Vice City because the devil is in store He’d make tributes of all my videos of my face I was scared of what was happening I started gaining weight I was that weird kid so no friends was ever really round me So even though he’s way older he was the only one that found me Even somewhat decent and likeable outside of my own mother My father said I was too fat and mocked my pimples I was guttered I was 10 by then And by this time this dude was really my only fucking friend And then he said he loved me so much that he would die for me He knew my mother's name and her phone number he would spy on me I didn’t realise what was happening how he lied to me I told him that I’d block him cause he freaked me out Then one day I woke up to all these comments on my video Saying how s*xy looking and fat I was I was only 10 This motherfucker groomed me and then made all these fake accounts Saying how he wanted to do something so disgusting to me I was only a child He made a fake account of me on Facebook and started playing pretend That’s why I’m afraid of relationships Cause every time I try and make that shit work I get reminded of him I’m gonna fucking kill *** if I see him again "DRUGS" Hm hm hmm hmm hmm Hmm hmm Something let me go but it’s haunting me I would let you go but it’s hard for me Someone let them know something’s wrong with me Have the heart for me Hmm hmm I been thinking bout my past And my future hoping it forever lasts But there’s some things I can’t grasp I still can’t afford therapy so I’m out on my ass To my ex girl I’m sorry babe I hurt you most I didn’t wanna use you as a fucking stepping stone Especially when people did the same thing to me To be honest I didn’t know what you see in me But you the one that distracted me From back when I was 10 and all that was attacking me All the things that fucked up all my intimacy and all my honesty It’s really harming me So I’m sorry bout that I don’t wanna let you go but I can’t go back I done did what I did I done made those mistakes But for you, I’ll always be grateful I been alone in my mind I felt gone for such a long time I just don’t know if I can cope Oh All these drugs in my mind They numb the pain through the night But I don’t know if they’ll take control I don’t know what’s behind that door But I don’t feel anything more I don’t know if I can control Oh How many drugs do I gotta take to feel anything anymore

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Aye, aye, yuh Aye you know that boy JJ he been on a roll Know that boy JJ been giving it all And even though I been losing control You know that boy JJ never sold his soul (aye, aye) I been on the move and I been on the run From all of these thoughts ever since I was young Was stumbling drunk but now I’m standing up So y’all cannot tell me to not give a uh I’m moving for love and I’m moving for peace They want us to lose yeah they want us to cease But if I can escape this reality I’m putting in work til it works out for we I’m working for we I ain’t working for singular You’re your own God I remind on the regular There’s so many things I know that tears you up But remember they’re fearing us I look at you through the skeleton I see through you and knew you’ve been better than Anything they’ve been choosing to settle with I know you are the truth nothing lesser than I look up to the sky for your blessing yes So I can move on this beat so effortless Feel the tears in my eyes as you tear your dress I remember those times we was sharing yet It’s in another life No poltergeist This is the spirit of love on the mic This is the fear in your heart overwrite As we flying onwards and into the night Cause I prayed to Yukko and I saw the light When I did not know if I would be alright I’m closing my eyes and I welcome the spirit The moment I hear it then I start to cry Yeah Uh uh I cannot go I don’t wanna leave but for you I must show But for your life I’m eternally grateful I mean I’ve always felt it ever since the rainbow That’s since the present and that’s since the core So knowing your love has been something so sure I wish I could heal everything that was sore But time drags us out of the door But I know deep in my heart there is something you know I won’t make assumption and won’t go too far But please just remember that you’ll live forever and you should always be real to who you are I shoot for the moon and I aim for them stars I know that the magic sits within our hearts The love that you have it will never depart I tell ‘em

I’m praying for some peace and I’m wishing for some hope As I write these words aimlessly I pray that I can cope Put my faith into the bottle hoping it would send a message Don’t wanna be the man who fell to earth and never left it I was searching for a Heaven to patch up all of my trauma I chased a couple highs and found my soul beneath the bottom The further I indulged it would remind me of my path So I took a leap of faith before my world would start to crash Now the music was the key and so I’m tryna make it happen All the nights inside my room releasing and attacking People planning out their future I’m still wondering what the past is Never letting go of memories that’s beautiful and tragic I’m tryna make some magic I can hold within my hand so I don’t ever have to let it go and search for it again I done that so many times it’s no wonder I write rhymes That’s the way that I make sense of all the trouble in my mind I always try and spit reminiscence of what the truth is But it’s time I let it out for what it is and not some bullshit No characters or story I can hide behind to prove it When I look into my mind I realise that I’m in ruins From getting called a *** back when I was a kid To lashing out on all my friends cause I ain’t work through all of it We just some fucked up adults that still can’t afford therapy But I ain’t living life out of spite of the fear of me I’m tryna break this system’s control Writing blue eyed Ab-Soul so I can fill up the hole That still lays within my broken heart and mind that’s bout to sink Cause they tell you think big Then they tell you see a shrink So I’m searching through Morale making steps towards the mirror I look into it cracked and overwhelmed I start to tear up I know there’s lots I fear much and a lot more I could say I look into your eyes and pray you’ll And I promise you that you’ll be okay And if you can’t find me there will be another day And I promise you that we’ll be okay And if I can’t find you we gon find another way And I promise you that I’ll be okay And that everything is great Tears in my eyes I see my own mother cry I see my own mother sick and it destroys me inside I start to wonder how this happened Why these days pass us by I’m going back to the source I’m looking down at the sky Do you remember those days When I was still just a child Yeah we made something out of nothing I would walk and she’d smile I grew up through his mistakes And yet she’d stand me up high So I would never have to fall again or question my why I remember wagging class to hang with Miran, Nish and all ‘em Making havoc with them always I remember every moment that I spent within them hallways Making videos on holidays those fucking LAN parties I remember missing *** I remember having heart attack when she ain’t talk to me I would give it all back to live it out again probably Fifteen years old used to look at myself so harshly But I put that knife down thank God it never got me Then I got to sixteen my voice done got clearer It showed me who I was so I told tales of broken spirits That’s when I found the spark and I never let it go But I held on too hard and I watched that shit broke I was so naive the only thing I saw was death Then I fell in love again and I got tangled in that web But I fucked it all up cause I drank too hard I broke way too many friendships cause my mind was not in charge Now my world is in pieces Nana looks at me see through When she sees me as honest She tells me do what I wanna So I made her a promise Imma always stand proud Imma be who I am I don’t care who allows To the people I’ve wronged And to those who stood by me Know that I’ll always love you I put my past behind me Now I look to the future And I cannot pretend You gon watch me ascend So baby Tell me it’s okay IF I NEVER HAVE, I SHOULD LISTEN TO YOU NOW

I was sitting in the back of a taxi Late night out and no trains that go past 3 Lady asks me where I’m heading at I say that I’m going home where I roam in the galaxy She looks back and says “no roads can take you there You’re like a rainbow running from the morning air” I found love in the light where the dark was Uenuku Atua Princess Kaguya That’s who I feel like, who I once was Roadrunner still tryna find my own buzz Cuts in my soul stares back with alarm All patched up with these rags buttons gingham and yarn Wear my heart like an armour and still I feel I’ve no courage like Fleetwood Coupe DeVille But I’ll still chase stardust til the day I die A young one in my heart from the bottom I rise Cause I’m a Young Fisher King Waltz through every train station chasing little things I’m a fool I’m a thief but with empathy I live my truth within a thousand little symphonies You know it’s meant to be Heavenly I don’t know what’s next So it’s up I keep my head as the sky turns red 47 on my chest Dollar days, 25 breaths Tail to neck Bluebird flying to death But give it all away I can’t So here I’ve gotta stay til the night goes dark But even if you still aren’t ready for the light This strictly 4 my spirits who got lost in the night I moonwalk with fairies they help me see truth For mum nan and Poppa I'm still pushing thru I’m surrounded by spirits I hope they gon hear this And then I can share it from us onto you Truth When you hear it in your spirit let it go I could feel you in the air I start to float I was falling through the sky I can’t pretend If I see you again To the sky I will ascend Yeah You gon watch me ascend Yeah You know we gon ascend Ascend You know we’ll all ascend Yeah