I’m praying for some peace and I’m wishing for some hope
As I write these words aimlessly I pray that I can cope
Put my faith into the bottle hoping it would send a message
Don’t wanna be the man who fell to earth and never left it
I was searching for a Heaven to patch up all of my trauma
I chased a couple highs and found my soul beneath the bottom
The further I indulged it would remind me of my path
So I took a leap of faith before my world would start to crash
Now the music was the key and so I’m tryna make it happen
All the nights inside my room releasing and attacking
People planning out their future I’m still wondering what the past is
Never letting go of memories that’s beautiful and tragic
I’m tryna make some magic I can hold within my hand so I don’t ever have to let it go and search for it again
I done that so many times it’s no wonder I write rhymes
That’s the way that I make sense of all the trouble in my mind
I always try and spit reminiscence of what the truth is
But it’s time I let it out for what it is and not some bullshit
No characters or story I can hide behind to prove it
When I look into my mind I realise that I’m in ruins
From getting called a *** back when I was a kid
To lashing out on all my friends cause I ain’t work through all of it
We just some fucked up adults that still can’t afford therapy
But I ain’t living life out of spite of the fear of me
I’m tryna break this system’s control
Writing blue eyed Ab-Soul so I can fill up the hole
That still lays within my broken heart and mind that’s bout to sink
Cause they tell you think big
Then they tell you see a shrink
So I’m searching through Morale making steps towards the mirror
I look into it cracked and overwhelmed I start to tear up
I know there’s lots I fear much and a lot more I could say
I look into your eyes and pray you’ll

And I promise you that you’ll be okay
And if you can’t find me there will be another day
And I promise you that we’ll be okay
And if I can’t find you we gon find another way
And I promise you that I’ll be okay
And that everything is great

Tears in my eyes
I see my own mother cry
I see my own mother sick and it destroys me inside
I start to wonder how this happened
Why these days pass us by
I’m going back to the source
I’m looking down at the sky
Do you remember those days
When I was still just a child
Yeah we made something out of nothing
I would walk and she’d smile
I grew up through his mistakes
And yet she’d stand me up high
So I would never have to fall again or question my why
I remember wagging class to hang with Miran, Nish and all ‘em
Making havoc with them always
I remember every moment that I spent within them hallways
Making videos on holidays those fucking LAN parties
I remember missing ***
I remember having heart attack when she ain’t talk to me
I would give it all back to live it out again probably
Fifteen years old used to look at myself so harshly
But I put that knife down thank God it never got me
Then I got to sixteen my voice done got clearer
It showed me who I was so I told tales of broken spirits
That’s when I found the spark and I never let it go
But I held on too hard and I watched that shit broke
I was so naive the only thing I saw was death
Then I fell in love again and I got tangled in that web
But I fucked it all up cause I drank too hard
I broke way too many friendships cause my mind was not in charge
Now my world is in pieces
Nana looks at me see through
When she sees me as honest
She tells me do what I wanna
So I made her a promise
Imma always stand proud
Imma be who I am
I don’t care who allows
To the people I’ve wronged
And to those who stood by me
Know that I’ll always love you
I put my past behind me
Now I look to the future
And I cannot pretend
You gon watch me ascend
So baby
Tell me it’s okay






IF I NEVER HAVE, I SHOULD LISTEN TO YOU NOW